Diary of a "Bad woman"

DEAR DIARY...

I still quiver when I remember that day
which could have been the worse day of my life,
I should have been dead and in my grave,
I believed that man and all of his promises
Though I knew he was already taken,
But I trusted his advances as a token of love,
I admit, I fell for the wrong guy…
But I thought that he would stand by me,
I thought it would be just us against all odds,
Then came that day when there were persistent knocks on the door,
And I thought that maybe he forgot something,
We had such a good time the night before,
But when I answered the door,
There stood an angry crowd,
And I felt so ashamed and I could not hide my nudity,
Then I was dragged without mercy,
Through the little city as the crowd grew bigger on the scene,
And I could not look at anybody in the eyes,
I knew the despise that I inspired and I was traumatized…
So like a trapped animal,
With the sound of fear pounding in my chest,
I waited… I already knew my fate…
There was no time to be remorseful,
They called me all kind of names,
I knew they will not be merciful,
But I brought that upon myself,
So I closed my eyes and anticipated,
The impact of that first stone against my body,
I could already picture my beauty fade away
I could already hear my bones crack within me like a shattered glass
Under the impact of the stones,
And not much would be left of my pretty face,
Everything would be gone just like my self image,
I wish I had thought it through,
Did it worth it,
A moment of pleasure but love with measure and
Here I was all alone and nobody inquired about his whereabouts…
“this is it… I thought….I blew it...I already knew the verdict,
so I awaited the sentencing with tears running down my face…
But something happened… when I was at my worst,…
When I was at the lowest point of my life… Love lifted me,
the veil of shame fell on the ground...
When I was the least deserving and my actions were tasteless and ungracious… Mercy said NO…
And I was given a second chance to start anew,
I was given a second chance to be all that I was created to be…
And months later, this man who left me to die by myself,
under the hands of an angry crowd,
Called me and said that he was sorry,
That he did not know about the whole ordeal that I went through until later on,
And that he still loved me and he had the guts to suggest
that we continue our relationship where we left off…
But I told him that I found true love,
I told him no hard feelings, but no thanks!
I told him That I was blind but now I see,
That I was lost but now I am found...



(Inspired by the story of the woman caught in adultery ~ I pray that it blesses someone)